So I was going to write about my sugar search until something wild happened today. I was sitting at my computer, chilling out and listening to music. My cell phone went off - I looked and it’s a text message from my daddy:
“Just landed at the airport. Want to ask you if you are happy with our arrangement?” He asked.
“Yes of course! Are you?” I asked. At this point I was getting dizzy ‘cuz I knew this has something to do with my new advertisement on the sugar website.
10 minutes later I get this: “Got an e-mail just now from my friend who told me about the site. It is a print screen of your new profile…Nice stab in the back! I don’t have a computer but even on my phone it is obviously you. Anything to say?”
Gulp…I could not swallow too well right then. I should have been expecting this right? Wrong, I didn’t think in less than 1 week J was going to see the profile. And what’s this, his friend is sending him profiles from the website? I did not want to admit to anything and honestly…I’m not his wife! Why do I need to explain myself???
I say back to him: “Why is your friend sending you profiles? Are you looking to leave me? :( ”
LOL…yes, that’s what I said!!! I have not heard a response for 4 hours now.
I had been so good to him lately too. This past week he slept over and then came over for a couple hours to cuddle with me. I’ve been all over him seriously! Kissing, cuddling, you get the picture! Last night I even sent him a message saying: “I’m going to miss you so much. You should write to me every day if you can handsome. Kisses.” And I truly meant it :(
Just because I’m looking for another sugar dad on the side, I’m not neglecting my responsibility as a good sugar girl. I really am trying! Why is he so jealous? Even last night he said, “You behave while I’m away.” Jealous…controlling…
Of course I look for sugar on the side, how do I know he’s not going to ditch me? All that talk about barrier free intercourse got me worried! I know it upset him and I started thinking…what if he starts looking for a sugar that will agree to condom-less sex? GAH!!!!!
I think I had a panic attack an hour ago…I thought I was going to faint. I know this isn’t the end of all things, it just means that if he ditches me it’s back to fucking lots of clients to make ends meet :( I don’t want to do it !!! I can do it every once in a while but not all the time!
Sigh…I need a hug really bad